Busy busy busy

Haven blog for a long while... Busy busy busy. And of cos, i was too tired to organise my tots in words everyday.

Now, doing BS class duty. Slacking. And I hope the internet connection dun fail me when I try to upload this blog. Tired man.

Last one month, has been an interesting month. Organising my tots and life to a whole new level. But one thing remain strongly within my heart. It's still my first and foremost desire to serve God full-time.

And I am reali trying to live out what I have been learning thru the wkly sermons in CG and SVC. I wanna be able to be successful in a business and yet serve God full-time. There is a deep desire within my heart for something, but I've never shared it with anyone. I'm just waiting and preparing myself for the right time. And today, i did smthg in relation to that matter. I feel so happy. Where my treasure is, there my heart will oso be. I hope that my love and passion will grow stronger and stronger for it.

Yestrdy, we had a good CGM. But i did badly in the P&W. I thk i was too distracted playing the guitar. I need more practice... Thank God for a CG that loves me and doesn't judge me based on one CGM itself.

I used to be so afraid that my members will 嫌弃我 or the CG for a "imperfect" CGM. But then later, i realise that it's reali the relationship that counts and not the "performance" of the CGL. People reali want to knw how much you care and not how much you knw.

To thk that one day, these bunch of boys are going to grow up, get attached to the gal of their dreams, and ultimately walking down the aisles in marriage, make me feel like a mother that will potentially be in tears of joy for them. Haha. This is so funny.

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Obviously, the internet connection has failed me. So I am continuing with the entry now. :)

The Church Service today was awesome. Bel led in both praise and worship. We sang an old worship song. It was so so good. Felt a longing and yearning in the spirit that draws closer to God. Sometimes, we dun need songs that are so "flowery". And Pst Tan preached a very good msg on Jesus' DNA. Will post the sermon somewhere again.

I just want to make mention something. On Thu, I was staying slightly later in the office. And then I was startled by a voice "Yvonne! You are here!" I looked up and it was Bel. And she looks elated and continued, "Do you have Getting Started Lesson 2 student notes?" I replied in curiosity, "Why you want that for?" "Give BS to someone. But she doesn't have the book." She replied. I said almost in amazement, "You give BS?!" And now she was even more bewildered, "I can't give BS meh?" HAhaha... 

Well, I didn't mean she can't give BS. I actually meant, "you give BS to who? I tot you are in ministry group and there shouldn't be any chance for you to give BS?" Anyway, I didn't explain myself, cos I was already brought away into deep tots.

I remembered that I told someone this before... "Look at Bel. She rose to her calling not bcos she was just focused on ONLY wanting to serve God in her singing talents. The most impt thing is she is revolving herself ard pp and loving pp. She was a CGL and doing pastoral work. Even after she went and focused on the worship team, she always take interest in pp, trying to inspire them and helping them. If you can't touch lives, your talents are basically useless..." 

When I knw that even till today, Bel is still taking interest in pp, i felt so moved in my heart. Aren't we all in this for people? Reali, if we are not touching lives, our talents are useless in God's Kingdom. Today's worship was awesome. Truly, if you want to touch lives with ur talents, you got to be touching pp individually first and then God's anointing will be upon you to touch pp corporately.

Today's Service...

Today, Pst Tan preached a sermon that is a continuation of the previous week. It was really very good. Felt very ministered and encouraged.

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*Think with Excellence*

2 Pet 1:5-7

Right thinking will result in right methods and behaviours.

7 stages: Virtue, Knowledge, Self-control, Perseverance, Godliness, Brotherly Kindness, Love.

Virtue = Gk. Arete means excellence.

Foolishness and laziness are severely condemned in the bible.

"Excellence" = to exceed a given standard that is ordinary, average, terrible or unworthy.

Excellence is:

1. To be superior in quality.

- If anything is worth, it's worth doing it excellent.

- If you don't have time to be excellent, you won't have time to re-do it a second time.

- Promotion comes when you have excellence in your work and not because you are nice.

- Disorder invites more disorder.

Song 2:15

- Very often, it is the little details that spoil the "vine".

2. To obtain greater in quantity.

John 15:16 To achieve your dream, you must be willing to pay the price for success.

Ps 126:5-6 The degree we pay the price determines the degree we would achieve our dreams

a. Puts a demand on the heart

Pro 4:23

- High achievers have a great reservoir of emotions to keep themselves going.

Eg. The donkey that shakes off the dirt and step onto it eventually survives and achieves its purpose.

b. Puts a demand on your time

c. Puts a demand on your money

3. To transcend your job description.

-Matt 5:41 The first mile represent duty, the second represent love.

-love begins after the demands of duty have been met.

4. To outdo yourself each time.

-Eph 6:5-6

10 Contrasts

1. Law vs Liberty 

Gal 5:13 

- create in the pp the desire to do it and not bcos they have to do it.

2. System vs Service

Matt 20:25-28

- remember your purpose.

3. Self-centred vs Sprit-centred

Zech 4:6

-God is looking for willing heart and that we lean upon Him.

4. Legalism vs Love

-Pp stay bcos they can feel that this is a place where they are accepted and it's a family to them.

5. Fear vs Faith

6. Control vs Care/Concern

2 Tim 1:6-7

7. Duty vs Devotion

Ex 17:12

-Devotion takes us to another mile.

-Take ownership.

8. Getting vs Giving

2 Cor 9:6-7

-It's not able what we can gain out of the networking but what we can benefit others in it.

-Be a person that uses things to win pp and not one that uses pp to win things.

9. Explanation vs Example

John 13:13-14

-Jesus was first an example in serving before he taught the disciples to serve.

10. Bondage vs Breakthrough

Jesus takes the rejects of the world and turn it into excellence.

God uses the base things of the world to shame the wise.

dun wait

"Dun wait for them to grow up."

Many times, we're always at the end of waiting and hoping and most probably praying too. But we shld not be held hostage by these so called limitations. We wanna win the lost but it's with a clause tat says "supernatural and easy." In reality, the supernatural only happens to those tat works hard for the harvest.

This Easter, whether there are many or few tat will end up at the altar area, the harvest belongs to those who works hard before and after. Let's do all tat we can to integrate these potential or not-so-potential frenz.

Hearing the testimony, i'm so moved. If we dun do wat we have been doing, where wld these pp be... and where would I be?

The week that just passed

 

 

 

 

That's Adam & Eugene. They lost in our CG games and ended up having to perform Indian Dance. But it ended up with Adam trying to do pole dancing until Eugene screamed:"I can't take it!!!" They were of such a good spot and we all had fun.

 

 

 

 

 

This weekend, F.I.R. came to perform. WOW! It was the first time I heard them sing live. They were good... I was especially so mesmerised by Ah Qing's voice. So nice... More than the nice performance, i thk the best thing is to know that they accepted Christ and their lives were being changed by God day by day. They knew very well they were not totally changed yet but they are trying their best to live their lives for God and to be changed by Him. So proud of them. Such sweetness in their spirit.

I had a bad backache. Dint sleep well the night before. Had a hard time trying to walk without feeling the pain. In the end, I still ended up fellowshipping with the CG at the Old Airport Rd hawker centre.

 

 

 

 

Took a secret shot of Adam & Tim eating by themselves at another table. Somehow the view was quite interesting to me. Hmm... Dunno how to describe it. :)

Pastor Kong preached on Servanthood. It was a very very good sermon. At the end of it, he gave an altar call for those that would say to God that if He were to call them one day into mission or full time, they will willingly say "YES Jesus". Jackie and Cinthia stood up for the prayer. Wow. I was very touched. It was about willingness not about if you were reali called. It was just about, Jesus IF you call me, I will FOLLOW.

It's not about prominence, not about recognition. I'm just contented that I can do my little to encourage people to serve God and especially in full time ministry.

I'm still not ready

Hmmm... Just a "hook" to make you read my blog entry. Ha! But then, not exactly irrelevant tho... I'm not ready as in... not ready to blog abt my year-end thanksgiving and new year resolutions.

Today, the cousins came over to play boggle. It was reali intense... Everytime, they do something, they are reali into it man...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And I just realised today that the cousins are reading my blog!! They are probably reading this entry now. (Hi cousins!!) Hee.

Pst Tan preached a tremendous sermon.

One of the illustrations that reali GOT me:
A lecturer took out a huge jar in the class. And he put in rocks into the jar as much as he could and he asked the class, "is the jar full?" The class answered, "Yes." Then he took out a pack of small gravels and started pouring in as much as he could. And then asked the class, "Is the jar full?" Knowing that the lecturer has something up his sleeves, the class replied cautiously, "It's quite full, but there is still space." Pleased, the lecturer took out a pack of sand and started pouring again till the jar could not take in anymore sand. He asked the question again and the class replied in like-manner. Then he took out a jug of water and pour it into the jar till it's full. Then he asked the class, "What can you learn from this?" One of the students stood up and answered confidently, "No matter how packed your schedule is, there is always a way to squeeze in more things." The class broke out into laughters. And the lecturer replied, "No. This is to tell you that, in life if you don't put in the big rocks first, at the end of the day, you will never be able to put them in anymore."

In life, if you don't put in the big rocks FIRST, before everything else, you will never be able to put them in anymore at the end of the day. Sometimes, we neglect our loved ones so much because of work, our ambition, etc, that at the end we realised we will never have the chance again to "squeeze" our loved ones into our schedule anymore. Not just talking about our loved ones, but also about what is actually more important in life. Things such as our relationship with God, our values, our convictions & our character.

So much to say... I am so impacted by this illustration. I couldn't get it off my mind and heart. Throughout the entire svc, thoughts went through my mind. Maybe it's time for me to move on. I need a confirmation. Can't be rash again. 

I'm dead.

Dead in Christ Jesus.

What a timely msg Pst Ulf has preached.

Without going through sufferings, victories are not fully appreciated. Sufferings magnify the importance and the value of that victory.

Dun run away from defeats nor failures. Failed, you had. Defeats, you know. Go through it. Walk through it. Run through it. Choose. Just dun run away from it. Sufferings you must have. But in Christ Jesus, your shield of faith will quench the fiery darts.

Appreciate your failures and defeats. They are there to make you a better man.

A great purpose will draw great tribulations. You will become a better man.

once again, back to 7 years ago...

The emotions stirred... It's back to 7 yrs ago again.

In the service, as Pst Ulf spoke and ministered, I was brought back to that incident again. Tears welled up in my eyes and came tingling down my cheeks eventually. I was left so broken and destroyed. My dreams, my vision, my abilities, my calling. Whose voice have I been hearing all these while?

The bible says, your gifts and calling are irrevocable. Do you hear it? Do you believe in it?

Why are u down, flat on the ground? Crushed. Whose voice are you hearing?

Again and again, I have forgiven. I have lifted it up to God. I have. I reali had done it many times. I dun hate the ones involved. But yet the words haunted me again and again. I am afraid. I had ran away from myself. I have lost my strength. I stopped at wherever and remained there. Where do I go from here? I had sunk into the pitch dark depression.

I was left broken and crushed. Feels so real, even now.

"He left Judea and departed again to Galilee. But He needed to go through Samaria."
- Jn 4:3-4

He did it for that one woman. He will do it for you. He will rescue you.

Surely, my gifts and calling are irrevocable...

Jed running after 'chauffeur'.mp4

This is Jed and his supposing "chauffeur". He did this like 3 times before I attempted to record it down... This little boy, Jed is so funny....

My star-thrower

Pst Tan preached a very wonderful message. As usual, each time he make a point, the point seem to sink deep into the hearts before the clappings and the cheerings would come. I left the service with deep tots and into my sleep with serious decisions.

Our lives and abilities are reali not just for our own to have. The story about that youth who saved her pocket money to buy milk powder for her friend's children, left me so broken... This is the story we shld be telling with our lives. I tot abt Veron in the service. She's one such friend that will do such awesome stuff. I pray that she will continue in it. She's like the boy to the star he picked up and threw into the sea. A hero. A savior. To that one, it mattered and it is good enough. It is good enough. :)

It was emotional for many reasons. The presence of God brought me back in time. A passion of compassion for a people without a vision.