once again, back to 7 years ago...

The emotions stirred... It's back to 7 yrs ago again.

In the service, as Pst Ulf spoke and ministered, I was brought back to that incident again. Tears welled up in my eyes and came tingling down my cheeks eventually. I was left so broken and destroyed. My dreams, my vision, my abilities, my calling. Whose voice have I been hearing all these while?

The bible says, your gifts and calling are irrevocable. Do you hear it? Do you believe in it?

Why are u down, flat on the ground? Crushed. Whose voice are you hearing?

Again and again, I have forgiven. I have lifted it up to God. I have. I reali had done it many times. I dun hate the ones involved. But yet the words haunted me again and again. I am afraid. I had ran away from myself. I have lost my strength. I stopped at wherever and remained there. Where do I go from here? I had sunk into the pitch dark depression.

I was left broken and crushed. Feels so real, even now.

"He left Judea and departed again to Galilee. But He needed to go through Samaria."
- Jn 4:3-4

He did it for that one woman. He will do it for you. He will rescue you.

Surely, my gifts and calling are irrevocable...

Waiting. We are stronger than all that.

I'm bored and waiting at SGH for my queue number to be called. Waiting waiting waiting again. Had my blood test and breakfast, and i'm still waiting.

Sometimes, it's reali quite cute to thk of all the waitings we all had gone thru or wld go thru. Waiting for a breakthru, a new building, and another building. Waiting for the prince in shining armor, romance, and the ultimate proposal. Waiting for a family to be formed, and an extension of it.

there are so many waitings and so many surprise happenings tat awaits us. Why give up now? Why let go at tis time when our life is still not even half gone? I am stronger than all this. I am.

I was very encouraged to hear tat Wai Teng is going thru a tough time during tis period yet she hung on to God. The pressure seems to be increasing in the family and the burden that is weighing heavily upon her heart jus gets more obvious. A youth tat's only 16 yet she chose to believe and trust in God. I'm so proud of her. She is stronger than all that.

We have gone thru much more. Surely, we are stronger than all these.

Ps 27:13

Service was great. Afterall, it's Arise & Build.

QT yesterday was tremendous. God spoke to me a few things... Blog abt it again when i can organise my thoughts better. I'm sleepy liao u knw...

CGM today was woohoo! It's about stress. I didn't preach nor look through the sermon at all. Johnson preached in the combine CGM. Worship was awesome. Minghui gave a word and I responded in confirming that word with a prayer of David in Psalms as I reali felt that God is speaking to the members on it.

Ps 27:13
I would have lost heart, unless I had BELIEVED that I would see the GOODNESS of the Lord in the land of the living.

I felt the presence all over me as I spoke that Word. And I was rather shocked that I could project my voice loud and clear. I haven't been able to reali raise my voice without "po yin". Haha. Anyway, I haven't gave a word for months... So silently, i prayed after I gave that word that if that word is reali for someone in the CG, someone will come and tell me about it. I prayed and wasn't bothered by it. Just chatted with KY over MSN and well well, i was glad that the word was a SPOT-ON-WORD for KY. I am just so glad that he felt so encouraged after that. And the sermon was on stress, and speak into his situation oso. Wa. Must be God la.

God is good.

Family Gathering

Today, we had a family gathering. 16 of us including 1 baby and 2 maids. Our hse is LITERALLY noise-filled! But I like it!!! NOISE!! :D HAHA. We had ALOT of food. Feel so FULL. Andrew and I were in-charge of the desserts portion. We attempted to prepare cocktail. Ok. Nothing special. We only poured F&N Fruitade into CANNED fruit cocktail, lycees, longans. We are simply hopeless. Haha.

We had a great time. Even drew lots for our Xmas gift exchange and who to bring what food for our Xmas celebration. This family is reali interesting. Everyone can be shouting and screaming like in a quarrel or argument, but they are actually just DISCUSSING. Nothing offensive. Sometimes it's like quite theruputic to be shouting and screaming like that. Cos in the midst of it, we will be laughing SO LOUDLY and hysterically. Haha. I believed we all enjoyed ourselves. I managed to snap 2 candid shots without their knowing. They looked TIRED. Well, it's already after abt 4hrs of active "DISCUSSION". All their "pattern" come out liao. Haha.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

After this, Vic and I went to meet Pst YK, Wenling, Meiyan for dinner at Katong. 2 married couples trying to matchmake Meiyan while we were having the dinner. Well, we sort of "forced" her to list the possiblities. Ok, MY ldrs muz be wondering who she listed right... Well, you can keep guessing. :) Haha.

Thereafter, we went to Pst's hse house to wait for BK & Pauline to come after they had dinner with Pauline's family. It's BK first time meeting Pauline's family. Should be rather interesting. I'm sure they are very pleased with BK. Cute and rich. Ha. ;p

This is a Hama piece I did for little Daryl while waiting for BK & Pauline to come...

Not bad right. Ha.

 

 

 

 

 

 

While having our "Teh ah lya" at coffeeshop, we were discussing abt facebook!! Now even Pst is so "updated". He's in facebook! Haha. I think BK and Pauline better get into it soon to be updated... :) Or may be they are too busy pak-tawing to get into this new thing now. Ha.

Ended our night with heavy downpour. Will have a good sleep tonite. :)

2007Nov2-Fellowship at NewYorkNewYork

Supposed to pass Cheryl something. Ended up at NewYorkNewYork for a sumptuous dinner. *slurp*
Cheryl was very happy so she allowed herself to indulge in a good meal. SINFUL. Haha.
We had a good time of sharing and fellowship.
Thanks Cheryl for treating me to the meal!! :)

Jed running after 'chauffeur'.mp4

This is Jed and his supposing "chauffeur". He did this like 3 times before I attempted to record it down... This little boy, Jed is so funny....

The last one wk

Finally, I can try to blog abt last one wk...

Last Sat, after service we fellowshipped at BK @ Expo. And the guys of the CG are so lame... It's hilarious especially when it comes from KY and Jed!!! Haha... You can try watching the short clip in the video section... :) (PS: The high pitch voice is mua... :B)

I was on MC last 2 days cos of sprained neck. The medication works. So "corrupted James" is not so corrupted actually. Maybe we should change his nickname to "angel james" or "healing James". Ha. I very random.

O but yestrdy Cin & I went to Xinhui's place. Xinhui's dog, name Happy, is so big liao. Er. I am not reali a lover of dog and totally freeze when Happy tried to get near me. Hee. Some photos...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

As you can see, I am not inside. I dun like animals... :B

Went home and then decided to do some jellies for the CG. Not alot but still I am very happy. I haven't tasted it. I hope it's ok. Quite happy I get to do something for the members.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Haven't been able to lead CGM for last 2-3 months liao. So I feel happier if I can do something for my members. Must be able to contribute ma. Love overflows and it is not supposed to be kept within only... I did this for my members last wk. The most creative thing I have done for my members, so far. Hehe. I will keep trying. :) (So pleased with myself. Haha)

So excited for CG today!!