Got the drip again

Tis pic is me last few days... Haha.

Anyway, it's so irritating. The IV was taken out yestrdy nite and i was able to sleep after tat. But today, they gotta put it in again to put in calcium. So demoralizing. Thank God, the doctor tat put it in was very professional and nice. He's from FCBC. Anyway, after the calcium drip, i felt better. At least the tingling sensation is more or less gone now.

But i'm having gastric pains. Can i blame it on the fries tat yanping bought for me? Haha. I have a wonderful sister. She cleared her bed for me to sleep in when i discharge to go back holland to recover. So sweet.

I hope i can go home soon. My neck area still looks swollen but it's not tat pain. God has been with me. I knw God is so good.

Still in hospital

I am still in hospital. Can't be discharged yet. Tingling sensation felt so need to be under observation for calcium level. Doc just came and took blood for test. It's quite painful.

Anyway, I just wish i can discharge soon.

I'm so tired

My neck and shoulder are aching like crazy. Tx to the nurse tat left me lying so uncomfortably on two pillows at the recovery room.

Admission was supposed to be at 930am and operation at 11am. But everything went haywired. First, we were told my admission wasn't done. Went to admission office again. Then was told the express claim form doesn't excuse me from paying the deposit. It's almost 3k! Where on earth i get the money at tat time. Vic was fuming. After 1 hr, the prob was solved with the letter of guarantee from office.

Then, we waited for 1hr plus before my temperature, bp were taken. And then we were told bed not available yet! So we waited and waited again. Then there's bed but now the op not confirm cos prof had to attend to patients at clinic.

By the time i reached my bed, it's abt 3pm oreadi! O man. I lied down to rest, and within 10min, i was supposed to go to op theatre. So fast. Then i was at the theatre and all the apparatus were all over me. And tah-dah! I was asleep and awake again.

Very tired liao. Will blog the remainder again. Goodnite.

I'm almost done

Almost done with work... Hopefully I can sleep soon. Quite tired today.

Went to my parents' place this afternoon. My mum cooked a bowl of $84 bird nest for me... Rather nostalgic for me. Black chinese medicine, bitter taste in ginseng, familiar chicken essence, etc. Feel so loved. Haha. More than just tat, it's a reminder of God's grace and mercy that brought me this far.

I was replying to all the concerns conveyed by the SMSes received and I just felt so tired to be in this mode. So sian leh. I shld be sms-ing someone else on how he/she has been. I just can't wait to go through the op and recover fast!

Thanks guys. Thanks!

Ward 57, 7am again

I'm having my 2nd op on Wed morning. Gotta be at ward at 7am again. Aiyo. Fast again on Tue 12mn. Tired leh.

Went to see doc for detailed report on the lump. The cancerous cell is focal. Meaning it's only on a point and not linked to the blood or smthg like tat. Doc says it's as good as I have already removed the cancerous cell already. But I gotta remove the left side of the thyroid as well. After that, they will scan for other thyroid lump/tissue in the body. Er. I ave no idea why is there any thyroid lump elsewhere in the body. Anyway, I think it's to ensure there is no other lumps grown in my body that is related to the thyroid. If there is then I gotta take medication to eliminate the lumps. The medication is some radiation kind of medicine. I heard I will be isolated for 4days after each intake and cant get pregnant during the time. I pray that there will not no need of it.

Because my entire thyroid gland is removed, I gotta to go on medication permanently for replacement of hormones. Thyroid gland is actually rather important as it controls our metabolism.

Then on the Thyroid there are parathyroid glands that control the calcium level in the blood. Doc says he will try to separate the glands from the thyroid else I gotta take medication to regulate the calcium level oso. Aiyo.

Friends, thanks for all the well-wishings, I reali appreciate it. I am still not nervous abt the op this time. Just pray that won't have any complications during and after. My mum said when I was 7, she went op to also remove a lump at the neck area, and she sort of died cos of the GA but was revived. Haha. Thank God I didn't know this before my 1st op. Hee hee.

Love you all!

Have you heard?

I guess more or less... Yep. I gotta go back for another op to remove the left side of my thyroid.

Prof Wong called to tell me the lump removed has a bit of cancerous cell. "O no..." Then, he assured me that for me it as good as I am cured caused I have already removed the lump. Just that it's a standard procedure to remove the entire thyroid once cancerous cell is discovered. I'm supposed to go see him on Monday 10am for details of the report and for me to ask questions and arrange for the op.

"O no..." Actually, nothing went thru my mind at that moment. I wasn't feeling scared exactly. I was rather calm but Vic and dad-in-law are not when i told them. Their emotions were so strongly felt that I dun thk I hv time to feel anythng else except trying to calm them. Ha.

Then I sms Joanna to tell her she doesnt need to remove the stitches for me anymore cos of this. And she called back and asked me. I almost teared at that moment. Not bcos i was scared. But I think I finally got the chance to feel, and I reali felt touched by the concerns of the family. The Tang Trio (Joyce, Joanna & Veron) came to "visit" me. Very very nice of them.

I'm not worried. In fact, I thank God that i chose to remove the lump and made this discovery. Else my future may be shortlived. And this lump had been in my body for 15yrs! By the grace of God I am kept safe and sound till now and will continue to be safe and sound.

But i just drag the fact that I gotta go thru the op again. Gotta fast. Then I might hv the TIGHT BLADDER AGAIN!!! O Goshhhhh... Totally tormenting. Pray for my poor bladder... Haha.

I think i gotta go on medication for a while after op cos i'm removing the entire thyroid. I'm still not sure... But would i still be able to get pregnant? O man... You can imagine how sad I felt when I tot of tat. However, I refuse to believe it as so. I wanna to be a mummy to many kids ok....

Dear concerned ones, I am ok. Just that I will be very out-of-actions now for work and for the zone this period. My neck is aching cos of the stitches. I'll be fine.

 

 

Boon Kiat's Birthday

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Nice. But prefer your old sweet flowery page.

 

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Today, I find greater difficulty in swallowing my food. Must go take my pain-killers again. Vic doesn't think I should go service this wkend. Maybe I will go on Sunday and stay in the artiste room la. Reali uncomfortable.

Tomorrow, I gotta remove the stitches. That feels more scary than to go thru the op. I am supposed to choose any clinic to remove the stitch. Maybe I should ask Joanna to remove for me la. She's a nursing lecturer in ITE. Shld be very qualified la. "shang nao jing"

Sec/JC holidays

Start:	Sep 1, '07
End:	Sep 9, '07

I'm discharged from hospital liao

Hi concerned ones, I'm finally out of hospital!

Vic was rather agonized today when we are packing to go home. Cos got so many baskets of flowers and goodies even tho we had cleared alot the previous day. He was like half grumbling cos I wanted to bring home the baskets since he doesn't allow me to bring back the flowers. Haha.

I am given 18days hospitalisation leave. Wa. So kua zhang leh. I doubt I can actually rest that long. Scare kana scolded by whoever that I am skiving. Haha. But I reali cant use too much force to do anything and can't raise my voice. Haiz. If can rest so long, it will be good for me too. Hee. Day-dreaming again.

The nurses and cleaning aunties at SGH are rather friendly and helpful. But the young housemen are so black-faced every morning. On the other hand, the senior docs and prof in charge of my op are very friendly and nice. The strange thing is they are are ALWAYS on a rush. They will appear and disappear within 1-2min. But they are still very friendly la. Haha.

Thanks for all those praying for me. I am recovering. May be rather out-of-action for this while. See ya soon!

Fruits, flowers, magazines, sudoku, comic

I received so much of them. Now, i got 3 fruit baskets, 3 flower basket, 3 hampers of food and tonic, alot of magazines, 4 sudoku books, 2 teddy bears. Thanks so much to all those tat visited me or dint visit me but sent gifts.

I'm rather tired. Feel better tat i can slowly pee. Hee. Even tho still cant totally empty my bladder, at least better than dun relief at all.

I'm rather delighted to see so many of the zone ldrs. So warmth. For those tat dint visit me, it's ok, you are forgiven. Haha.

thank you my lovely friends!

Breakfast

Tis is my breakfast. Finally can eat after more than 24hrs. But it's so difficult to swallow. And i am going to swallow 8-10pills after my breakfast. O man... Faint.

Didn't sleep much. Woke up every hour to go toilet. Cant pee much oso. So gotta go every hour. Siong man. The doc says i can discharge but i requested to stay another day. Cos i feel so uncomfortable and plus vic says he doesn't dare to sleep with me cos scare he wld hit my wound. Haha.

Ok. Gotta "enjoy" my breakfast now.

You are awfully cheery

That came from a doctor after my op at my ward and bed. Was i cheery? I oso dunno. Another nurse oso said tat while wheeling me on my bed back.

Now, i'm using my hp to blog. Thank God for wireless@sg. Actually, feeling a bit miserable. Headache and vomited. Thirsty but cant drink too much water.

Pls pray for me.

7 more hrs

"Hello. Can I speak to Yvonne Chua?" "Yes?" "You have to come to SGH Blk 5 Ward 57 by 7.30am for your admission. Pls do not wear any makeup, jewellries, nail polish. No food & drink from 12mn today."

Felt a bit "serious" after receiving the call while I was in the cinema waiting 881 to start. My op. I still dun feel reali nervous la. Pp ard are quite nice to sms and call me to show concern. But until smthg happened and I was so upset that I cried in the cinema and plus the show was so emotional at the end. I felt like "why like tat?". Suddenly, I was negative and down.

I think I expect alot whenever I open up myself emotionally. I dun usually like to show myself weak but when I do, i expect pp to behave themselves like CHRISTIANS to show kindness and mercy and love. I wanted to protect myself emotionally, but yet i knw there is a need for me to breakthru. And when I do make myself open up, many times I get so disappointed. But I still need to continue to become vulnerable.

I am not trying to become weak. I am trying to become vulnerable. To learn to cry when I'm sad. Be angry when I need to. Be happy when there's a victory. Brag about success and breakthrus. Give honor where honor is due. I just need to align my emotions to what it should be. I am always trying to remind myself to express correctly. Praise pp when I see smthg praiseworthy. I need to be happy when I receive good news and have a breakthru. I should be angry when I should be angry.

Anyway, I pray that God will encourage me in my sleep tonite. Goodnite. Good Morning.

Prepared for tmr?

Aiyo... Cin's last sms is making me a little nervous liao. Haha.

I am going to watch 881 with my sister soon. Get myself relax... :)

Ok, for those of you that would be visiting me, pls dun get me chicken essense, flowers, fruits... My house is FILLED with it since my grandpa-in-law was admitted to hospital last month. If you would like to get me smthg, try to get me sudoku series. Haha. It's still wat i'm enjoying most now.

Comic book is quite good too. Cos usually i dun spend my time reading comics. Too unproductive. But since I'm supposed to rest and waste time, then I thk comic is quite entertaining.

Maybe somebody should buy me some turtleneck tees to hide the long ugly scar. Choker would do too. Who knows, it might be the beginning of the trend again. HAHA.

A. Even tho my birthday is in month's time, this is NOT my wishlist for my birthday hor. HAHA.

But I pray that during this week of my rest, God and pp ard "her" will take care of "her". Breakthru i pray. Pray for "her" too.

Counting down...

Another 33hours.

Still not reali nervous. Ha!

Combine CG with Johnson's CGs - Aug 9, 2007

Fun!

Kopi-O

Aiyo... I am drinking KOPI now... Why "aiyo"? Cos i drink KOPI-O in the morning but the lady gave me the wrong one... but it's ok. i just got a piece of chocolate waffle from claire.

Let me blog abt kopi for today...

My kopi-o is a "he". He is dark and and cold on the outside. But actually passionate on the inside. With a little ice, he has a cool side too but still as passionate.

All over the world there are different flavours of coffee. If you dun like the color and the taste of the original, add milk and you have a whitened, altered-taste kopi call latte.

With a little mixture of chocolate, you have mocha or mochinano (sorry, i dun qualify for spelling bee). And many many more...

He may not be the popular one among gals cos he may cos yellowish teeth. But he's certainly popular among many guys and the older generation. Based on all the different flavours available out on the market, you know he's totally flexible or pliable.

But I still prefer my original passionate dark cool-looking KOPI-O.

Pre-Admission Tests (Aug 10)

My wait started at 9.25am. Had blood tests, ECG, X-ray taken. Did the admission paperwork (I will be staying in category B1 ward). Seen the anesthetist. Was asked many questions on blood clot problems (in case i have the potential to bleed to death...), drug allegy, etc. I spent about 3 hours on just these few stations.

The most "torturing" was the last station to see the doctor for my pre-admission assesment. I had to sit and wait for about 1hr 10min before i could see the doc!! And guess what... I was told what i was oreadi told in all the previous stations! Signed 2 forms and i was out in 5min! I waited 1hr for a 5min talk with the doc. Why did the 3 patients before me took 1hr 10min?!!! O man... Well, I brought home "Your blood tests, ECG, xray are all ok" & the most annoying HEADACHE.

Cin asked if I was afraid of the operation... I dun reali feel scare or worried... Maybe not yet. I'm just a bit grossed out the last time I had GA applied on me... The nurse said "ok, start counting 1 to 10." "1... 2... 3... ....." Before I knew it, I was unconscious and awake again. So eeeks.

Hmmm... How i love my life... I remember I was so sick when i was young. Frankly speaking, I feel absolutely insulted whenever people comment that I always fall sick. Cos I was so sick all the time when I was young. Always in pain. I think that's why I'm not reali scared of pain or injections or bitter medicines. Had too much of it when i was young... So used to it.

Even tho I was rather accustomed to pain, I remember I was always "fighting" for my life. I wanted to live so much. I treasured my time, my life. I can be having fever, but i would insist on going to school. I joined every and any activities that I was asked to. In primary sch, I was in chinese dance, band (trumpet), brownie (smthg like girl guide), short dist, long dist track events, long jump and high jump, cross-country events. In secondary sch, I challenged myself with NPCC, basketball, volleyball, netball, track events. I dun call myself an athlete cos i am not good in any of them tho i did win some medals. But it's just cos many just dun wanna try. Haha. So sad huh. But I just loved my life and wanted to try to stretch myself. I just needed to live it to the fullest.

Now that I am older, i need to remind myself of that "attitude" I had when I was younger. The "fighting" heart that simply loves life. That was why I was quite on the extreme side whenever I am motivated to do smthg. Thru the years, this part of me was just so toned down till I wonder if I had oreadi lost myself.

Part 1

To dream again...

Outside an old theatre
On a usual hot sunday afternoon after a church service at 4pm, a group of youngsters gathered at a row of long tables for "meeting as usual".

"Wey!! Wat is tis?! Left without handing in admin!! Can't stand it! Deaf or blind or wat?!"

"A... quick quick call them... Yvonne angry liao"

At the other end of the tables were whispering and laughters. The outburst of anger were totally ignored.

This is "meeting as usual" for a group of youths that are "cold" toward admin but "hot" toward God. Dreamers they are. Quite audacious. The kind of conversations about outreaches and growth are rather intimidating but yet provoking for anyone that has yet "prove it". Young but always believe that "all things are possible in Christ Jesus!"

For those that have yet to even grow, they are visualising and talking about 100% growth by end of year and multiplication. For those that have grown, they are talking about multiplying 3 ways, 4 ways. Believing for school revival. Very very audacious. And they say it, believing in every part of it.

To grow by only 5 in a year is never good enough. Dreams are very big. But yet not so "big" for those that believes it, speaks it and does it.

So very real... All things are possible to those who believe...

O Tag!

Four jobs i had in my life:
1. Waitress at Marina Mandarin Hotel (I love it!)
2. Sales Assistant at G2000 (yey!)
3. Admin cum receptionist at PSB (BORING!)
4. Zone Secretary in City Harvest Church (...)

Four places i have lived:
1. Singapore, Holland (my mama & papa's place)
2. Singapore, Jurong West (Vic & my small place)
3. Singapore, Ang Mo Kio (my in-laws' place)
4. Singapore, ??? (no number 4 at this moment!)

Four places i have been on a vacation:
1. China, Hong Kong (Been there 3 times!)
2. China, Shen Zhen (Quite enjoyable)
3. Thailand, Bangkok (Not bad. But the sales attitude is bad)
4. Taiwan, Taipei (food not so nice)

Four of my favourite food:
1. Curry Chicken 
2. Laksa
3. French Fries
4. Potato Chips

Four friends to tag this:
1. Cheryl Hiew
2. Cai Yanping
3. Cinthia Lim
4. Aloysius Siow

Sleepless

I went to bed at 12.30am... And I still did not sleep even at 2.30am on my bed. I think I did doze off in between but very quickly I'll be awake again... And I just struggled to sleep and then woke up and then struggle to sleep again. This just went on till morning............. and i was with a heavy heart and a HEAVY HEAD.

I felt for goggy while i was on the way to work... Everything feels weird to me...

During the night, i thk i had alot of nightmares... or wat... i dunno. I just felt i was "binding" in between my sleeps... Saying "no weapon formed against me shall prosper", "Greater is He who's in me than he who's in the world"... And I think i prayed for Sun in between my sleep or dreams or whatever... Aiyo...

Now headache... Feeling so negative. But will be ok one.. God is with me...