HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2007!

 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

 

WOO HOO!!!!!!

Last

The last day. The last hour.

 

It's the last min and before the last second of 2006...

 

I would like to thank God for all His amazing grace and faithfulness throughout the year. Many things are in store for me in 2007 in God's mind and thoughts. As i walk forward to reach out to come in line with that thought and plan, I pray that i will get stronger.

 

A strong person is one that bounces back quick after a set back. I need to be stronger. 7 years have past. I just gotta go on right? HAHA. (Well, it's not for you to know...) :) BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE to all the 7 years of struggles in my failures (in my mind). BYE! Byee to the years of depressions caused by failures, unfair judgements, injustice, etc. BYE!

 

I will smile to 2007! HIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!! Smile to the people around me. HIIIIII!!!!! Get stronger. Not bitter. Friends will stand by. Foes wont last. Be simple. Dun take things too hard. God is good! Your calls and gifts are irrevocable! Serving God is a privilege!

 

Love you God! Thank you! I will go on. Love you!

I CRIED??!!

O my goodness! I cried in the CGM today!!! O man...

 

Well, i never like to appear weak to pp. Not that crying means weak... Maybe bcos since young i was always sterotyped to be a weak little gal. (I was only 138 when i was in P6!) Tat's why i switched from chinese dance to NPCC and sports in sec! Yap. I was a dancer too! just a CHEE-NA one. Haha. So maybe, i have learnt to be strong and tough along the way...

 

Anyway, i was so shocked that i cried during CG today!!! God's ways are always higher than our ways... I wanted to say alot of things and my mind just went blank during that moment. Aiyo... so paiseh!!! I shall write some of it in my blog then... (Anyway, i thk some of the members dun read blogs so i no need to write oso la. Ha!)

 

To Cinthia:

-Gal, you have come a long way in 2006. I know many times you had to give up on your on "ideals" and "dreams" and take up the challenge I placed to you. Even though there were some "unwillingness" after i talked to you somewhere this year, but you blew me away by taking up the challenge and rising up more in the CG. Many times, you keep kana "grilled" by me, you were still very "you" to me. Not pretending. I am very proud of you. Thanks for taking up the challenge. Couldn't have done it without you!

 

To Nick:

-I still remember you are only 15 yrs old... Hee. Enjoy your youth and grow through your youthful years. Don't despise your youth cause you can do great things in CHrist Jesus. You have come a long way as well. Want you to know, i am always here for you. I believe in you!

 

To Jackie:

-Very happy that you are breaking thorugh in your finances. You can be the head and not the tail, on top and not beneath. All of us have weaknesses. Your weaknesses are not less or more than others. Don't maginfy them. Keep breaking through!

 

To Pelyn:

-Little gal is not so little actually. I'm very happy to always have you around to brighten my day always. Well, you have a lot of "bees" all around...  Learn to "enjoy" the attention but dun be confused by ur hormones. HAHA. You have an attractive personality!

 

Aiyo... So many people how to write... Haha. Say faster leh... Ok... Gotta continue...

 

To Sean:

-Mr handsome, can you go and charm some gals into the CG for the sake of us?! Haha... Keep running toward your dream. Thanks for being teachable!

 

To Math:

-O yes... full of questions all the time... Haha. Keep building on your hunger for His Word. You can get some of our brains to be thinking as well!

 

To Xinhui:

-Very happy to have you in my CG. and being my "nu-er"... Hee. Love yourself. Cos Jesus loves you and I love u too! Thanks for being the faithful reader of my blog! I love you lots!

 

To Dennis:

-Your hunger and teachable attitude have made it easy for me to be your CGL. You reminded me of myself when i just came to Christ. Keep running after the heart of God. Nobody will ever be able to belittle you bcos you don't belittle yourself. Shine for Jesus!

 

To Adam:

-Your fickleness has made you very interesting. Haha. You always have new hobbies all the time. Remember, dun be a jack of all trade and a master of none. Nonethless, you have added colors to our lives!

 

To Nicholas:

-Your sms to me today has made me glad. Pls spend more time here to build your friendship in this place. I hope i can be a friend to you too!

 

To Mengru:

-You know that i will do anything for you. There are many things we simply cant change. And you probably have come to accept it. You have been strong. Thanks for believing in me for so long!

 

Ok. The rest, shld be wont check blog one la huh. HAHAHAHAH...

 

But reali, I love N262 alot. Everyone of you is reali a piece of my life.

 

To Stella and Shirley:

-you gals have been awesome. Yanping loves you gals alot. Haha. Ya ya. i know you all always think she's very fierce... But she has a very soft heart for you people. Just learn to listen to her heart. You will know she loves you all alot.

 

To my sister:

-you are an inspiration to me! Your little acts for your members make me feel so inspired all the time. i am VERY PROUD of you!

 

Aiyo... So mushy... I better stop. Going to vomit at myself liao. Haha.

 

BYE 2006. HI 2007!!!

HAPPY-Dec 29, 2006

I am so happy today!

 

Bought a diamond necklace for my mum!! VERY NICE. Have been wanting to buy jewelry for her. It's been bugging me. Today, i finally got it for her! YEY!! So nice... SO HAPPY! HAHA...

 

Besides that, i am so tired... shopping with Mengru... So tempted to buy alot of things... Thank God i bought the gift for my mum instead. Hee hee. Saw a bag that i quite like, but it's $45!! Wa. A bit ex hor.

 

Anyway, so excited about tmr's appreciation CGM. But so sad that Tim, Jed, Wenhui wont be coming... I wonder if Xinyi will be coming or not. Haiz... what about Samuel and Zheng? Haven seen Weikang for so long... he dint reply my sms oso... so sad... anyway... I hope tmr's CGM will be fun, memorable and full God's presence...

 

Well, i gotta continue to do my "work" for the CG appreciation gifs. Hee. I hope they will like it.

 

Looking forward for tomorrow...

It's still raining

Not a very good day. it's still raining...

Yvonne JIA YOU!

Black

My mood is as black as the sky today. BLACK MOOD.

 

Am I a moody person? MAYBE.

 

Maybe I should just go with my mood. And make decisions based on that? So that I can be officially named an emotionally unstable woman. Ha. At least that's a sure thing. Ha.

 

Ok. What am i moody about then?

-the sky is grey

-it's rainy season

-spent my xmas to do all the last min things

-lousy attitude?

-I wanna go overseas but nothing is settled

-I'm not pregnant yet. Ha.

-Unhappy with myself

-2006 is ending

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Well, whatever it is. It's just me, myself, my silly mood.

 

Forgive me for my black mood. I am trying to smile.

Headache

Ah... An added ailment... HEADACHE.

 

My stomach is still hurting. And now my head is hurting too! Well, blame it on Nick. Oops :P He told me there's Marks & Spencer at Bishan. So with my stomach pain i decided to go to Bishan to "fulfill all righteousness". But after much efforts from Nick, i still couldn't locate Marks & Spencer. O welll... Cinthia was screaming behind Nick: "I stay there. There is no Marks & Spencer in Bishan!!" Hmmm... Ok. Nick, it's your fault that i have headaches. HAHA.  

 

But this headache is bad. My brain almost went numb, i thought i was fainting while in front of my comp... Haha. Sometimes, I wonder if i will suddenly just pass away like tat. CHOY!!! Haha... Wont la huh. I still have a great destiny! HEEEE...

 

O man. Here it comes again.... OOOOOOOOOOOUUCCCCCCH! PAINNNNNNNNNNN... Both in my temple and tummy.

 

I'm collecting SVC forecast now. Many CGs have alot of friends man... PTL! But the rest of us gotta jia you la. Pst says gotta increase 800 per nite. All things are possible in Christ Jesus!!! Hooray!

 

Guys... HIGHWAYS & BYWAYS okie? By all means hao bu hao? Hee.

I am so sick

Pain pain pain thorugh the night...

 

Cant even sleep properly... Seen doc. Ate medicine. It's still so painful... How in the world did gas get into the stomach and cause so much pain. Help...

 

I'm tired. I just wanna sleep. Give me some sleep.

 

I need a vacation. "Make" a baby. Haha.

 

I'm in such pain... Help...

HAHA

HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA

 

I guess laughing is better than crying.

 

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Yvonne, forget abt these pp. What for? They will never appreciate. Anyway, they are just kids who will never learn to love you back in time. O. Or maybe all along they dun thk that you love them. You are so busy. YOu look too busy to care for them. Too busy for them to approach you. You look so intimidating to them. They dun dare to be themselves when they are before u. You have yourself to blame.

 

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Next wk is Christmas!! Let's go all the way out for friends. To the highways and the by-ways! With God all things are possible! Cmon guys! Let's be urgent for your friends to come to Christ! It's Xmas! Jia you! We can all bring 2-3friends!!! Pst preached about Shamgar. Let's all try! TRY! Maybe some can be in-charge of preparing door gifts! And some in-charge of doing welcome cards and invite cards. How about a little gift exchange thingy? Anyone wants to be in-charge? Small purpose. Any "Shamgar" to avail themselves? 

 

How about prayers! Let's pray for 40,000 this Xmas. Let's pray for our own friends and loved ones to come and be saved. Pray. I wanna see ur loved ones coming to Christ too. Pray for them. Love them. Invite them. Dun be afraid of being rejected. At least you care enough to invite. Just try. Just do it. You can do it! Jia you!!!

 

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The end awaits me. No. I am walking toward the end. I am going to determine the end. At least I will try. How about you?

 

Colored my hair

Today i went to Gorgeous at Far East Plaza to color and highlight my hair. 2hrs. Woooo... But ok la. I was happy i did my hair even though the highlight isn't obvious enough. Well, it seems i am always a victim of sterotype. I am supposed to look "guai". Next time, i muz emphasize i need it loud. :)

 

Well, walk the whole day with my half-spoilt wedges. My legs are so tired. I couldn't even find one pair of value for money brown wedges. One pair probably is good enough, but it cost $149. From Aldo. O ya, that explains it. O man... But it's quite comfy tho. Let me wish for it now. God may just bring this wish to pass this Xmas. Hee. *HINT* - Pls quickly pray for vision of that pair of shoes to appear before ur eyes now. C'mon, only the willing and OBEDIENT will eat of the fruit of the land. Better obery huh. Hee. Just kidding. :P

 

My Xmas wish list:

Brown wedges (Aldo)

White shoes (Adidas) (Saw it twice 1 mth ago, thereafter it seems to be off the shelf liao)

Blue shimmering eye-liner (Bodyshop)

Silver lip-gloss (Makesup Store)

Compact Make-up brushes set (Bodyshop) (I think i lost mine in a cab last week)

 

10Dec2006

Haiz...

 

I'm just too shocked by the numbers that appeared before my eyes. Too shocked. What should i do to help Pst? I wish i can do more for Pst. I dunno how... 

 

I always feel that i am not capable enough to help Pst effectively. Ya ya ya... all the praises that come to tell me that i am good as a Zsec. But i still feel that i can do much better. I wish i have a bigger capacity to help him not just in his zone's admin. I am feeling frustrated that i am so inadequate and limited.

 

I wish I could be like Victor who can understand Pst so easily. I wish I could be like some of the young leaders that has that "brashness" to just do it. I wish i can be more faithful. I wish i can be ...

 

I dun mind if i no longer lead my own CG but actively help him to supervise CGs and help the leaders. It's not about my kingdom. Being under Pst for so long, all i desire is to reali be able to help him in every way needed. It's not abt ultimately if i have my own subzone or not. Or I become a ZS or not. It's just that i wanna be able to help him effectively.

 

Or maybe, i am not achieving much cos i am not ambitious enough?

 

Well, i guess i just have to pray more. Seek first the KOG & all these things shall be added onto me. Prayer is the key to every success and breakthrough.

 

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On a positive note... I felt touched during SVC today. God reminding me about how when I was young, my heart goes out to love humanity. Loving pp fervently. I felt like GOd knocking on my heart... "Do you remember how I loved you and how you in turn loved people? The passion that follows..."

 

Thinking on that line, i think i had let the "cares" of this world clouded my vision and blocked up that well of love for people, both saved and unsaved alike. I probably faced the computer too much that i am not relating to people enough. Ha.

 

Hmmm... Gotta pray. Those who seek will find.

 

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God is a good God. At least I have fulfilled my 5-fig BF and I am VERY THANKFUL for His grace. I believe i'm gonna clear my $10k study loan soon. All things are possible in Christ Jesus!

"NUA"

So tired now. Did nothing much today. No CGM. A bit "eng". I just "nua-ing" the whole day.

 

Woke up at 10am. search internet on tour packages. Then went to my parents' place. Then "nua" until Vic comes after his CG. Then we continue "nua-ing" until my bro and his wife came. Then we ate dinner. Then "nua" again till 8plus then we went home. Then log in to search for tour packages again.

 

I am so sad. Nobody can go overseas with us this time. Pst's son(daryl) is starting his P1 on 3Jan. Then Meiyan dun wanna miss year end CG and SVC. Then Aaron says their budget quite tight. Kel replied "cannot le". Tian ah... So depressing... But nvm la. Just go alone with my hubby la. But the tour package looks very very tedious. It's very cold now. 4degC. Wa. Advice was given to wear MULTIPLE layers of clothes. I can imagine myself now. "BAO BA ZHANG". And the HUGE laugagge i gotta bring. O man...

 

Well, still it's not confirmed yet. See how la. Haha.

 

I believe i will still enjoy the trip. Esp with Vic around it will definitely be great! Hooray! I do hope my HP wont ring during that period. HAHA...

 

If everything goes well, I hope we can have appreciation CG on 26Dec, Tue. Praying that it will be OFF the entire week for the staff. HAHA. Pray la pray la. HEEEEE.