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Haha. I think I must be reali "wu liao". Anyway, I am feeling ok. Just that recently I have alot of dizzy spells and super-tired-but-cant-sleep nights. But i am fine. :) Dun worry guys. :D

O ya. I just borrowed a book, "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult, from my member!! So excited abt it. I shared abt my read on "P.S. I Love You" previously. BTW, I did finish it by the time Vic came back from Taiwan. My first book after... say 15yrs?? Ha. I reali thk so leh. Ok la, that's not including the many Christian books that I have read in the last 15yrs. Ha. So I am going to try reading this book.

And yes. I wanna say this... I was just whining abt how Vic said a STRONG "NO" when I wanted to eat chicken wing on Tue night while the ldrs were having supper together. I was like "Hmp! What's the big deal... Chicken wing only ma. Oso must be so worked up meh." And I was even whining abt it before we slept that night. HAHA. Then today (Thu), Vic bought chicken wing for me, without me asking for it. O so sweet... And just to mention oso, that he went downstair to pick me up when I was reaching home on Wed night after BS class duty. So nice... Hee. But I guess after we have children many of this would change. For a split second, I felt that having no child is probably quite nice. Er. But I still want to have children QUICKLY... :)

Have just been really frustrated recently. Frustrated abt today's CGM. Too tired so lost of thoughts from Praise to Worship to Sermon to altar call. Just dunno why the words are all jumbled up when i spoke. HAIZ..................... Tomorrow is another CGM. I hope will breakthrough. But I'm glad to be able to have a short fellowship with Nicholas Ng and Adam before the CGM. I thk that alone is a good time of establishing something in the spirit. So PTL! :)

Oooo... 3am oreadi. I am tired. Reali tired. I must quickly go and fall asleep. And wake up to a new morning, a new day. God is good.

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ok. Xinhui, i'm blogging now. :)

Waiting for bus. Not feeling too well. Managed to conduct cgm though. Boarding bus. Say more again.

划悲愤为食量

I still couldn't get over my sadness very much. Cried before I came out today.

Anyway, I have proven to myself what it means to 划悲愤为食量。 Haha. Went to have dinner with the cousin-gang and I reali REALI ate to my fill. I kept saying I was hungry and i reali felt so hungry. It's like in my mind i was saying, "hey! the rest of you dun cook first. I cook first. dun fight with me for food!!!!!!" Haha. Of cos, I am exaggerating a little to emphasize my desperate cry of hunger. Furthermore, it's an expensive $42 steamboat buffet at Chong Qing Hotpot in Suntec, so I gotta eat to my fill right... Hehe. And today, I have my hubby with me, so I am happier eating the though-expensive dinner. HA!

To me, it's not the price of the meal nor the food itself. I simply like the fact that they laugh, they disagree, and they display their excitement freely even though it may not be reali of interest for the rest. Ha... 

I am generally a more serious person. And most of the time if you find me unhappy, angry and impatient, it's usually over something else that I am blaming myself for and you are catching me at the wrong time. Haha... And no use trying to cushion it for me too, I would feel worse. Ha. Weird hor. Maybe, I shld care less about things said or done. BTW, if you still dunno, it actually takes a lot for me to be soooo angry with pp and stay that way. Usually, if I am displaying my anger, most of the time, it's on purpose for a reason. It's very tiring to be angry you know. Haha. :) So dun worry abt me. I forget all the time. But dun take me for granted bcos somehow I'll knw. ;P

Anyway, I brought home many "balls" that filled my stomach till I felt like throwing up. 

I hope I will feel better.

God, I hand it over into Your hands. And can that include the "balls" that are swimming in my stomach? :) 

Love you, God.

Back to work

Finally, back to work after 2 days of being sick. I am still so tired but feeling better. My stomach is also still weird. Not Diarrhea but just feeling weird. Haha. Vic even jokingly said that maybe I am pregnant. HAHA. If I am pregnant, I will definitely be SOOOooo over-the-moon happy. Well, back to reality.

Now, I am feeling a bit bewildered about something. I didn't think that I was that insensitive. But I think maybe it's just that if there is anything so wrong, just be direct and say it. If I can't bring myself to say it, then I've got to accept it and move on. That's probably my philosophy of staying happy. And i didn't think that this has made me that insensitive.

And now, I'm supposed to keep quiet abt it, which means, I am bothered by it but I cant say it. That leaves me with an only option to accept it and move on. :) I can do that. I am ok. But I rather I talk it out. Cos then BOTH of us moved on and not just myself moving on. 

In my relationship with Vic, we settled this from the beginning that even if we fight, we will not allow our disagreement and unhappiness to be carried over to the next day. We will always settle it latest by the time we sleep that night. That is why, we grew in our relationship and understanding of each other.

I pray we will move on in this. God is good.

YK on Channel News Asia

Pastor Yock Kiang was interviewed by CNA.

He conducts an office devotion every week at Pinnacle Motors.

Random

Just so tired after the Adults Evangelistic Mtg on Friday. Dunno why. Started to have sore throat immediately after the mtg. Then cough. Then couldn't sleep well. Then yestrdy shivering in the aftern. So i quickly EAT. In case of the repeated case of what happen a weeks ago. Anyway, I just feel so so so tired..... Even in my dreams, I dreamt that I was so tired that I fainted and strengthless. Ha. So result is I was very late for work today. Aiyo.... Tsk Tsk Tsk...

To cheer myself up a little, some random pics...

Invasion of the "Bee Empire". Hee. Just making fun of 2 "ah-tah" women. Tsk Tsk Tsk...

Samples

You may just find some products that you always wanted to try here.

Again today

Looks like God is rather persistent that I dun run away from this anymore.

Last Saturday, I cried during the SVC as God spoke. I was a bit taken by surprise and dint know how quite to respond. Rushed off without debriefing the members to do my BS class duty. And then rushed to airport to finally received my husband, who had been away in mission for 15days. I cleanly forgot abt what happened during SVC, until the SVC that had ended just a while ago.

During worship, God stirred within my heart again and I started crying. And I dun quite understand. I think if I had the liberty, I would have cried out quite badly but in the midst of being uncertain of where God was leading me, i managed to hold it back a little.

Seeking and searching as I worship, emotions stirred and tears flowed. God began to open up my heart, bringing me back to the same few scenes again. I saw the place where we used to have our CGM and saw as if God peeped into that HDB flat that night, many years back. The group sat in a circle and I was sitting nearest to one side of the wall on the left. I remember that sight. That night, it was a lousy CGM and it was with a group of pp that would weigh heavily on my heart every time I think of them. I felt so overwhelmed by emotions as I saw that. 

"Everyday I live, I know you are my God. I lift my face and look to you my Lord. Even when the mountains tremble and a thousand fall, I will stand with you. My Jesus, take my all."

As we sang, "Even when the mountains tremble and a thousand fall, I will stand with you. My Jesus, take my all.", God just continued to tug on my heart and tears continued to flow. It wasn't regret nor sadness that had overtaken me. But I just continued to cry.

"God, I dunno how. I reali dunno how. How I am supposed to do it."

I just know that I can't run away. I got to do something about it. I dunno how. I reali dunno. I will just try whatever I can. God help me.

2008 Daryl & Chyanne's Birthday Party

Keighley's one year old celebration

At Linda's Wedding - 2008 July 5

A sweet "story" that came to my mind...

Suddenly, thought of this rather sweet incident...

Every morning, the 3 daughters of the Foo family would find find 4 numbers written on the bulletin board that's near the door. The bulletin board is used by the parents to make any "announcement" in case they do not get to meet their daughters. So the 3 daughters were rather puzzled by the numbers that kept changing everyday.

So one day, they all decided to ask their dad. "Pa, what's the 4 numbers on the white board for?" 4D? or wat?"

Looking at the white board, "Orh...", his dad replied. "That's the cab's plate number that your mum takes when she goes to work early in the morning. I scare anything happen so take down the plate number when I send her to take cab every morning lo."

Woww... So sweet hor.......... He's already in his 60s then. So there's reali no age limit to being sweet and nice to your spouse. And to me, that's being so romantic... Hee.

Then I tot of my hubby. Miss him alot but "mad" at him for seldom even call me and I had to hear from others abt him. Every night, I'm the one that will sms him goodnite and no reply from him. Aiyo... But then again, my "anger" is always easily and quickly forgotten. I told myself yestrdy that I am going to ignore his calls today and tomorrow till he comes back on Saturday... but then... he called just now, and I PICKED UP THE CALL. I forgot. After putting down the phone, then I remembered that I was supposed to ignore his call. Aiyo... How to "act" angry... Now I am telling mself that I must "deh" at him for all that when he comes back on Saturday. I hope I remember... HAHAHA... 

For all my blog readers, I'm sure your "goosebumps" muz me all jumping and dropped all over the floor liao... Haha... Quick get your partner and you will soon understand. HAHA.

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Day 10

This morning, I woke up with this usual thought "Vic went to Service." Then I remembered, he's in Taiwan now. 

I looked at the clock while half in a daze, "It's 12pm now. Service ended. Vic should be back soon." Then I remembered, he's in Taiwan.

Anyway, today went for high tea with Vic's cousins and bro. (High tea, AGAIN?!) Cost a bomb and the price tag on it is $37. And they were raving about a Shangri-La high tea that cost $70!! I hope they forget to ask me the next time they decide to go for it. HA!!

And did I mention that I wore my favorite black wedges that decided to give up on me? The left high sole was threatening to disengage and make it a flat shoe. So I had no choice but to go scouting for a new pair of shoes!! Spend money again... Well, I was impatient... Couldn't find any black pair of shoes which I like that has my size. (It's size 6, in case you would want to buy me one pair. HEE.) So I decided to give up on black and took a pair of light brown shoes. Got the size. Great. Took great effort to put it on cos the couch was all taken by people resting. Went to the counter and guess what?! It costs $49.90! Charles and Keith, when did you "upgrade" yourself? It's already beneath my feet. So took out my card and paid for it. You had better not let me down.

That's my Day 10 missing Vic. Can't wait for July 12...

热豆花

“小姐没有热的豆花。烧的有。” - This was what I was told when ordering 豆花.

So hilarious. It's supposed to be 热 not 烧!! I was so amused by it. Haha.

Anyway, yestrdy we were at the Dawn's dad's funeral service. As we hear the sharing of the Word from Pst Tan and Dawn's Eulogy, many of us became teary. Stirred with emotions. I'm sure for us, it's just another stirring in our emotions by words we hear, the pain we felt in the emotions displayed by the family. But for those that were really living life with him and the family, it's certainly more than just an emotional time.

I remember that one day I dreamt that my mum had an accident and she passed away without knowing Christ. I stood in between my living room and my kitchen for a long time. And pain gripped my heart. I felt like crying. I was lost for words. Dun even know how to describe it. When I finally regained my composure, I started praying for my mum. And made greater effort in spending time with her to talk to her every time I go back to my parents' place. Thank God she had accepted Christ and is now very ON for God in her church. I was and still am really really very happy.

When one is saved, truly the whole household shall be saved. Thank You, Jesus!

Everyone say cheese!!

After the leaders' session with Mike Connell, we were still so energetic and "ON" for fellowship even though Pastor YK and Vic were not around. So we decided to take a photo and email them to tell them we miss them. Haha. The longer I look at the pic the more amused I feel. So funny hor... Look at our smiles... What were we so excited abt man?  BTW, this is only 1 of the 3 photos we took with 3 different phones. That guy from another zone taking the pics for us muz be finding us reali hilarious. HAHA.

Actually, I was reali tired then. Forgot to take my medicine that morning. So by then with all the praying strongly and emotional worship, I was running low in my energy and I just felt strengthless. And started to hv cramps even on my fingers!! Well, so I didn't pray for anyone. Kinda feel weird and "bad" but then I thk I better dun risk it. Else I will probably be the one manifesting!! HEEE...

I thk those that responded to the altar call were ministered mostly not bcos pp prayed for them. But like what Pst Mike says, we gotta take dominion over our own lives and not be expecting others to pray for us all the time... That victorious feeling they feel muz be reali good and affirming to them.

Anyway, I miss Vic alot. He's very busy. Today, Vic called at abt 5pm in such a "relax" tone. It's the first time in 6days that he called me to chat with me and especially in such a tone. Well, his main item was over so he was so happy abt it... I thk I will be hearing alot of interesting stories from him when he comes back in another 10 days... He has 2 more camps to go. Jiayou dear!

Random Pics taken at fellowship after Mike Connell Session with the ldrs.