Emerge 2007 - Jun 3

Only a few of us are there, but it was AWESOME!

Cheryl Tou Chi

Cheryl is not supposed to eat supper... That's her hand... She ate in the end. muahhh...

Yummy

Ate this in one of the Jap restaurant in Marina Square. Very yummy. But its price is $8.80. Ex la. But nice la. Haha.

2007May27-CG fellowship at Airport Mac

2007May6

2007May15-Ldrs Mtg

Many thoughts

Yesterday, I kept crying during svc and even after svc ended. I just kept crying or felt like crying. I felt God touching my heart again and making me so soft in my heart. Not bcos I felt sad that i missed out on anything but I just felt so grateful and honored to be called and part of such great plan in CHC. I am in no way deserving of such a life and purpose but yet He has called and included me in His purpose. Teared again.

I never liked to appear weak to people. God had worked on that when I first came church. Opened up to share and be transparent to my ldr and then slowly to my friends in my emotions. I didn't realise that I had closed up and walked back to my old self.

I still remember that God spoke to me during my EOY CGM abt being vulnerable and i cried almost uncontrollably in the CGM. Felt so so weird and uneasy. But God tugged at my heart to be vulnerable. Went home, disturbed. Ya. Disturbed. I dun understand why i muz look so weak. Couldn't understand yet felt that's what it should be. Now, i kinda understand.

If I can't appear weak, I can't appear strong too. If I can't appear angry with sin and faults, I can't appear happy with successes too. No wonder many times i feel so stupid. When I am actually very happy for someone or smthg but somehow I dunno why I can't express it correctly or fully. I will just keep quiet or not say much. Then I will feel so stupid after that... Ha. I gotta learn to express myself correctly again. Give me time. I will change.

Still got so many things to say. Anyway, I am just so grateful and thankful to God.
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Friend, I wish you were there in svc yestrdy. I am sad and grieved. Yet I trust in God as all things are in His hands and in His timing. I hope that one day we will stand rejoicing together again.