Time to take a step back

All the big events in our zone are over, except for the young adult dance event that has been put on hold till further notice. So now, i have time to breathe again.

It's really such a relief that all of the big events are over, at least for the time being. Yesterday, especially after the youth evangelistic meeting is over, I can see that relief in all of the youth ldrs' face. Really a great relief. One thing I notice... The youth CGLs really took charge of the meeting. They ran the auditions, rehearsals, saturations and also the actual meeting all by themselves. They made their own decisions on songs, events, performances, etc. EVERYTHING. And then they realised that Pastor YK is not even going to be around to preach! HAHA. I think BK nearly fainted knowing that he gotta be the one preaching. In the end, we got Joseph instead. But still, I think BK should go for it the next time. Afterall, Pastor YK preached to 200 over pp when he was only 18? I will vote for BK to preach in the next evangelistic mtg!! HAHA.

For the youth CGs, I really think you guys are just so awesome to be able to run this entire event all by yourself. Just now in the service, I thought of all of you when Pastor Tan said, the members should really appreciate their CGLs. I thought to myself... My zone ldrs are reali great! I think you guys know that you are here bcos of souls and lives. Not abt special recognition. It's really such an encouragement to see you all lay down your lives for others. Thank you very much. It brought much delight.

Service was very good. We sang Amazing Grace in a slightly different tune. But the song is still as anointed. Tears flow down. I think the members were very touched as well. Anyhow, I just felt in my heart that it's time to take a step back. Breathe, pray and seek God. Pastor Tan's sermon reminded me of a post that I put up a few months ago about saying no to some good things. Reminded about "Do not strife with me." My heart was so stirred. What would that mean? It means nothing until a decision that propels me to a direction.

God is good.

Summer Retreat 2008 @ Sofitel, Johor (Aug 30 - Sep 1)

The adults went to Sofitel, Johor for our first Adult Camp!

It was really a great time together. Thumbs up to the adults!! Of real sport.

To view more professional photos taken by Yangzheng, go to http://picasaweb.google.com/summerretreat2008.

Some of us stayed back for another day for our rest and relax.

Photo Album 2008-09-04

Groin Injury?!

Goodness. It's the biggest joke of the day. The doc told me I got groin injury. Something like what the soccer players always have. I was like laughing at it when the doc asked me how long I played squash. "Only 10min la! Entertain a kid. Aiyo!" Really joker leh.

Anyway... Just gotta eat pain-killers and muscle relaxer to ease off the pain. But still cant sit too much else will feel the sharp pain. Dunno why oso.

Vic said this morning that he can feel that I am reali reali very tired. And he was saying maybe I shld ask the doc to give me a bigger dosage of the thyroxin. I just ignored his question. Not like I didn't tell the doc. Forget it la. I just live with it. Sometimes, on the surface it reali looks fine. But i knw in many ways, I got to adjust my life accordingly. More efforts got to be made. But I think it's hard to explain. When i said I'm tired, pp would probably be thinking i am spiritually tired or tired in terms of serving. But whenever I feel tired, I gotta reali consider it's reali my body that is tired. So cannot let it affect me emotionally or mentally. Just gotta adjust accordingly. And when I feel very frustrated, I gotta tell myself it's just the hormones working up. Cos sometimes, I forgot to take thyroxin so I will feel this way. Kinda hard to explain. And it sounds reali reali weird. Haiz. Well, I can only choose to live with it and adjust to it. Can one.

Gosh. It's 10pm already and I am still in the office. I better go home. I need to rest. Haven't have time to do anything for my Miss VonJo too. Gals, keep in view my Miss VonJo store for updates next week!! :) 

Back finally

Back from JB finally... Headed to JW from the 2nd-link for the youth evangelistic mtg rehearsal and then back home to AMK. It's really home SWEET home. No more mosquitoes and houseflies everywhere. But the souvenirs of the mosquitoes kisses remains rather evident on my legs. My comrades would understand what I mean.

But heavy hearted. I need to pray a lot on this. 50% sure. Nobody lives my life for me. I make my own decisions. I take ownership of my own life. Nobody will take pity on me nor give assistance to me. It's up to me. Just got to get up and move on. Yes, it might hurt in the beginning. But how? When there's no one to direct and guide me through. I can only make my own decisions. After all, it's still my life, my destiny.

O BTW, for those non-bloggers that read my blog... PLEASE... Read with a little bit more INTELLIGENCE and WISDOM. If you read it as it is then maybe you should stop reading people's blog. And my blog is definitely not for you. :)  Thank you.

Sorry. Sounded a bit harsh. Just need to say that to make my stand. I have my reason so if you dun understand, ask before you slam me down. You dun hv to be like me but neither do I need to be like you. Thank you. :)

Ok Ok. To soothe this intense tone... Back to the camp. Or rather, a funny incident that happened on the way back. For some reasons, we needed to converse in dialect, mixture of hainanese and hokkien, Boon Kiat had a sudden bottleneck in expressing himself in dialect and he went "wa wa wa wa wa wa wa...." ("I" in hokkien) Well, the whole car of pp broke out in laughters within seconds. Part of it for laughing at ourselves oso in trying so hard to speak in dialect. ha! 

It's a funny trip. I had many good loud laughs. De-stress for the body but for the heart it's still prayers and more prayers. Maybe it's really time.

Camp ended

Woo!! Camp ended!!! So tiring for us who have been working for the caamp. But I think I react slower than the rest. I dun feel exactly tired actually. I only feel tired when I seriously had nothing to do. Like now... I am reali not tired but my friends are all so tired. I think they shld be SOUND asleep like my husband now... Heee....

It's really has been some time since we had a camp like this. In fact, it's the first adult camp we had and it's across the border in JB. The adults that attended the camps were also really awesome. They were really of great sport. I mean it's really amazing man. They played the telematch like the youths and even more gung-ho!!! To think we even "looked down" on them. O we were wrong big time. You see the tai-tais, CEOs and businessmen doing the stuff like anyone else and with great sportsmanship. I was so shocked by the sportsmanship they put forth. Really shocked. In fact, I had to keep reminding them "be careful!!", "slippery!", etc. My jaw dropped la... We have decided for the next camp, it will be much harder. Hahaha. Will put up the photos when we return to Singapore.

The committee finally had a good Chinese dinner to relax. Prior to that, the guys went to play water polo and Vic returned with multiple scars that are bleeding-red. According to him, it's courtesy of Pastor YK. if you ever play sports with the guys in my zone, especially the leaders, BEWARE. They are SERIOUS players even if they seriously dunno how to play. Ha! :D

It's a fun time. And I heard they are going to play PAIN-ball (ouch! can imagine the bruises already. Haiz.). O sorry, I mean paint-ball. And Vic seems rather enthusiastic about playing bowling and ping-pong ball too. Ha! And also some kart ride or bike ride, and a whole list of activities. I wonder if that will actually take place. Hmmm... Are they really going to wake up at 7.30am for breakfast? Er... I doubt I will. Hee...

Besides that, I miss my CG. have't seen them for so long. Had been busy with camp. Praying for their prelims. Hmmm... God will be with them. God is good.

going JB for Adult Summer Retreat 2008

this what we had been busy and preparing for. Pray it won't rain when we are there. Hope everything will go on smoothly. It has got to be fun!

Anyway, went checkup yesterday. Doc never answer my question. He just paused, thought and walked away. Came back at talked to the junior doc and still never answer my question. Haiz. I'm given some prescription and mc and was sent away. Sometimes, doctors are quite perculiar pp. And I am no better. I accepted it as it was and went away with thoughts. Ha!