Sprained my neck?

hmmm.... I finally went to see doc after enduring the pain for last few days.

Doc said I sprained my neck after examining my shoulder. He said my right shoulder is higher than the left. I can't even tell it from the mirror.  Dunno if he just say it to comfort me or wat... Haiz... Anyway, he gave me 2 pain-killers and 2 days MC even though i told him just today would do. He said I need to rest and not supposed to stretch or twist my neck. Ok Ok. I just hope the muscle will quickly go back to normal and not cause anymore headaches and pain at my neck area.

Very tired. Didn't sleep well cos of the pain. Hmm... Will try...

Anyway, I am so excited. Going to Xinhui's hse tmr with Cin. Actually, we wanted to try to cook at her hse, but her parents are in la. Not so nice to use their kitchen especially when both of us simply know nuts abt cooking. Haha. You see... We just wanted to TRY to cook... Got it? So we will try to do something else instead. So long nvr see her. Hope we will hv a good time together. :)

SUN as the face of Singapore in 2 Gala Dinners in Beijing & Shanghai!!

Wow!!!

Beijing: http://www.singaporeseason.com/en/events_beijing.aspx?eventsid=20070704516670867148

Shanghai: http://www.singaporeseason.com/en/events_beijing.aspx?eventsid=20070704516670867148

My star-thrower

Pst Tan preached a very wonderful message. As usual, each time he make a point, the point seem to sink deep into the hearts before the clappings and the cheerings would come. I left the service with deep tots and into my sleep with serious decisions.

Our lives and abilities are reali not just for our own to have. The story about that youth who saved her pocket money to buy milk powder for her friend's children, left me so broken... This is the story we shld be telling with our lives. I tot abt Veron in the service. She's one such friend that will do such awesome stuff. I pray that she will continue in it. She's like the boy to the star he picked up and threw into the sea. A hero. A savior. To that one, it mattered and it is good enough. It is good enough. :)

It was emotional for many reasons. The presence of God brought me back in time. A passion of compassion for a people without a vision.

Look at that huge guy

Melvin "ni wan le"... :D Look at his huge appetite. He ate the largest portion of main course today. Surprisingly! Cos I tot Johnson shld be the guy with the HUGE appetite. Haha.

Anyway, this was a birthday celebration for Yieping. Barry and San were sick so couldn't be present. Wenling was working at home. And our coordinator Meitong, wasn't here cos of CG outing. Aiyo...  But we still had fun! Yes fun...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fish & Co. has a special way of celebrating birthday. They requested Yieping to STAND on a high stool... And Melvin was too kaypo so he was sabo-ed as well. Haha... See the both of them on STANDING on the high stool??!! Melvin nearly hit the ceiling oreadi... Haha... Then after that, the Fish & Co crew were shouting some "chant" so loud that all the customers in the restaurant couldn't possibly do anything else except to watch the whole "procession" until it ended. I laughed until my throat is aching with pain.

 

From left to right:

#1 Look at Melvin...
#2 So embarrassing.
#3 Melvin asked: "Is it your 21st Birthday?" Yieping: "I'm 19." Melvin: "Then what's the occassion that I'm up here with you!!"
#4 Standing on the high stools.
#5 Thoughts going through their mind "quick... what's next?"
#6 Try blowing the candle this far. Yieping: *gasp*
#7 Melvin: "Aiyo. What's so difficult. Let me do it."

 

Thereafter, I started psyco-ing Melvin that my beloved sister is a good gal worth his considering. Well, then I realised he is so YOUNG la!!! I feel so cheated. Melvin, it's time you spend some money like Johnson to keep your face to your age la... oops. ;P

Anyway, my sister is reali very good leh. Any takers??? She doesn't mind guys shorter than her. But dun misunderstand... she still isn't hard up for just any guy ok... She is reali a very wonderful woman. Spiritual. Cute yet muture in many ways. Full of dreams yet no lack of a grasp of reality. Has a "nua" image yet she is definitely a very very hardworking person at work and in ministry. *Kowtow* So any takers? It's BMW (Best Man Wins!) :)

Enough of BK & Pauline...

I keyed a long long entry and the multiply logged me out. So I am retyping a super short version.

Just needed to say that BK & Pauline are HOT. Their "together" news have broken my records of my blog entries being visited 47 times by 27 pp and these are just those that visited it while being logged on to multiply account. Conclusion is they are a HOT couple! :) So enough of them. I'm getting jealous. Ha! ;P

I just did my IQ test on facebook. O I am so stupid la. Only 115. I tot I scored much better when i did a test many yrs back! I hv aged!!!! O somebody save my brainy!!!!! Especially, after what happened today... I have a confirmation... I am deteriorating, aging, depreciating, etc etc etc... What happened leh??? I FORGOT to bring laptop to work!!! When it was actually just beneath the bag i bring out for work... Not only am i forgetful, my eyesight is failing too... I am aging..... Somebody save me!!!!

Boon Kiat & Pauline

Yes, if you still dunno... They are together!!
I'm so happy for them! They treated some of us to dinner just now. And "suffered" our teasing. Haha. And poor boon kiat... cos pauline will be going china for 2 wks starting Tue morning. Looks like their overseas calls bill will be sky high. Hehe.

See These?

These are what will set me back to my life from tmr onwards!! 125mg each morning!

 

 

 

 

 

Went to do my scan this morning at 8plus. The impatient cab driver took almost an hour to reach SGH. He was probably so upset with himself for taking a passenger to SGH. He was banging his wheel, cursing, switching radio channels, tapping his fingers on papers... Just making noise to irritate me or smthg. But I was just bochap la. I'm too sick to be bothered. But it cost me $17.20 to reach SGH when it is usually hardly $11! God bless the driver. I wasn't too bothered but just can't help wonder why he was so impatient... I think he won't be enjoying his day very much. Aiya. I shld hv cough a few loud coughs at him with mucus and let him see the scar on my neck or pretend to faint after i alight or smthg. Haha.

Anyway, I went for the scan. I almost got a heart attack when the cashier wanted a payment of $400+ for the scan! That's when I asked "i tot it's included in the medisave since it's part of the radio-iodine treatment?" Smart me. Else I will burn another big hole in my pocket!

It's so cold especially after I changed into the "clothing" that you wear for scans cos no clothing underneath except panties. *shivers* And the scan is so long... 20min-30min plus waiting on that narrow "bed"?? And then wait for the person to bring me change and see doc. *shivers* COLD....

Doc analyzed the scan report for me. He says the radio-iodine is absorbed majorly at my neck area as I could see from the scan. He said that in actual fact it will continue to "kill" off the cells for next few months. And I will have to come back again 4 months later for another scan. Then he told me a horrifying fact... I probably gotta take radio-iodine a 2nd time to confirm that everything is clear 8mths from now. My gosh. I asked in a as calm manner as I knw... "Is it the same dosage? And I gotta stay in again?" I can't imagine going thru the "torment" of being in that cell again. Erks. And I supposed to go through a CT scan. Wat's tat? Is it the same as wat I had earlier? I dunno la.

And this all means, I can't get pregnant for the next 1 and a half yr. So it's not 6mths... Haiz... I shld gone thru all these 3 yrs ago........ Then now I would be a mother liao.... How sad... So all the married and mums-to-be, pls be happy you are mum and going to be mum earlier than me. :) Children are blessings from God. I believe God will bless me with children. Darling says, maybe in 1 and half yr's time, God will bless us with twins. Haha. So sweet to just imagine it. Hee...

After all the "horrifying" news, the doc finally said smthg i hv been waiting for. "You can eat anything you want from now on." O ye, Laksa I am coming!!! "And after taking Thyroxine, you will go back to your normal health abilities after 1 month when the Thyroxine stablises in your body. And no exercise for 1 month." Woohoo!

It's a wonderful day!!!

Coke saves the day!

It's absolutely misery for me to be stucked in a room with a tv and the toilet door with the fresh paint smell. Erks rite? Every second is intolerable.

Even tho vic came over tis morning, i was still feeling miserable. Totally pathetic, standing by the windows watching cars and pp on the road. O mine... I was very impatient with the nurse processing my discharge. After the pharmacist came, i almost dashed out of the room with great sense of freedom!

But it dint last too long before i realised i was still feeling unwell from the swell and sore throat. Whole day feeling erks in my stomach. I was having a wishful tot aloud "if i can have a cold drink like coke now... Wow...". And vic went downstair to get it for me at tis hour! Wow. My darling loves me very much... It made me so happy. Happily sipping and enjoying the cold coke down my throat and into my stomach. Woo...

Received sms from a zhiyuan. Was so glad for the concern shown. Thanks friend. We'll arrange to meet after i'm much better.

Swollen

O man... this is 2nd time typing this... cos kana log out...

Yestrdy, I came to SGH to to receive the Radio-Iodine Treatment. It's just drinking down a liquid that's saltish and only a few drops. My face and neck are a bit swollen and painful... (See that in the pic?!) That's the side effects... And I am feeling very very tired and frustrated cos can't sleep well...

Plus visitors are not reali advised to come cos of radiation. And if they do come, they are supposed to stay only at max 15min-30min and stay a comfortable distance from me... Wa. So serious... Nurse said whatever they bring in they are not supposed to bring out. So all the food and cutlery are disposables. Haha... Even toilet I muz flush 3 times each visit bcos of the radiation. And I am supposed to drink LOTS of water to perch out the radiation. I have become a dangerous person that even nurse said unless I call, they wont come it. Wooh! I wanna go home tmr... I muz drink lots of water!!

So it's real real real BORED here in this room with not even any moving objects except the image from the TV. Now Liu Ling Ling is singing 881 songs on some elderly show. Wa. I have aged...

Roy just came to visit me. He bought kopi-o, newpaper and SKITTLES!! Yey! He just left with some radiation. HAHAHA... No la... the radiation would hv gone somewhere else by the time he walked out.

I am so tired and so bored and so frustrated. I wanna go home to sleep. The aircon is so so cold... Haiz...

 

Keighley gal

Just now went to my parents' place cos I can see Keighley my almost-3mth old niece. She welcomed me with a LOUD cry, full strength from her abdomen. She is an opera singer in the making... Cos the "singing" went on for an hour before she was quiet for 30min. Hee. And then loud "singing" began all over again... Hee hee.

She's still so adorable la even tho her face was red from crying. And she was pulling her hair and ear while she cries, which made her cry even more... I was watching her cry and wondering why she did all those "stunts" when it hurts. I mean she's only a baby. I dun even think she cried this way to be a attention-seeker or throwing tantrums to get something she wanted. She cried just bcos she just felt something is not right maybe not even knowing what exactly will make it right... She will calm down a while as if trying to feel if it's right... Then she will start crying again protesting how she was feeling so not-right. And I think i know why now... cos she's so accustomed to sleeping on a automated sarong bed at home that she needs to be rocked all the time to fall a sleep and to feel that "rightness". Haha. Babies are so cute right.

When I was a baby I was also very used to sleeping in sarong attached to a "spring" that will spring me up and down. Now, I can sleep ANYWHERE........ ANYTIME........ Cos my needs have changed over time.

When we are young, we say and do things the way we want. But when we are old, we no longer just say and do anything that we want. (That's in the BIble. Can't remember exactly which verse.) Bcos our sense of responsibility has grown. We see further and bigger. We consider more. Our lives are no longer just about "I, ME & MYSELF".

We no longer just consider "my own dreams", "my own desires", "my own needs". Is it a burden? Not reali. It's just a phase in our lives that we have to learn to grow into as it comes our way. If we can step into it and learn to handle it, we have grown, we have moved on. Dun just stay at crying at the "feel-not-so-right" like a baby. (All the parents will agree that u won't ur baby to remain at this crying stage. Ha!)

It's not a burden. :)

Woke up so tired

I didn't feel like waking up at all in the morning. My sleep last few days have been disrupted again. Very tired. But all this will be somehow over in one wk's time.

Yestrdy, I was so encouraged to receive a call from Tim regarding Marc. He said that Marc has PO and got scolded by his mum when he asked about Christianity. But Marc wasn't discouraged. He only said he may not go for all the CGs and SVCs. Tim suggested that they can still meet up to pray when he can't go CG/SVC. And today they are meeting up to pray!!! All organised by our dear Timothy Chan! Woo... And Tim was saying that Marc was not discrouaged but rather excited abt God and wanting to speak in tongues. Tim just sms me that they just ended their worship and going to pray now. That's long if they started at 1pm as planned... I'm so glad that this is what they are doing on the last day of their exams today. God is becoming very real in their lives and not just a mere good religion from their parents. O ya. Marc who just accepted Christ last sunday, even told Tim if he can't go SVC he will pass his tithe to Tim to drop for him... Wow... God's word has left a deep imprint in his heart for such a young believer. I'm so encouraged and reali so propelled to love the lost like it used to be once again. Who says the leaders are the only ones leading?!

Like what I always say... Real friends challenge one another more in character, values, dreams and calling. I am challenged. :)

What a disgrace?

"God, I'm such a disgrace."

That was what I mumbled during the ministry time at the ldrs mtg last night. The leaders present were crying and weeping in God's presence. Most were kneeling down and in their own prayer "closet" whispering words that only God's ears could hear and understand.

As I uttered, "God, I'm such a disgrace", tears came down and images flashed across my mind. And I cried all the more. "God, I'm such a disgrace." Somehow, in my heart, I felt that I was such a disgrace to Pst for failing in so many things and not accomplishing more. As those words went through my mind and heart, Pst came over to lay hands on me and prayed for me. He said "Let your love fill her heart. Let her know the love that I have for her." I was shocked. Did I hear correctly? Did he pray wrongly? He couldn't have heard me cos those words were only going through my heart as grief overwhelmed me. But these questions did not require an answer or clarification. I know it muz hv been God. God has answered me.

Yes. Many people have told me that I am such a good help and a good ZSec that they have, etc... But somehow, in my heart, i am not reali ready to reckon with the "praises" that pp hv tried to award me. I could have and should have been more. 

The faces of these people that flashed across my mind. I could only cry out to God, "God, forgive me. Forgive me for destroying their lives. Forgive me for losing them bcos of my rash, my foolishness, my fear, my weaknesses." I felt so guilt-stricken as I was still crying in God's presence. Pst preached that Jesus answered those that came for healing, "Your sins have been forgiven you." And I realised that many times, we need to receive God's forgiveness if we wanted to see total healing. As much as the guilt strucked my heart that moment, I cried out to God to forgive me of my sins. I know I can never turn the clock back. I could only ask God to forgive me and redeem every single one of these people. I know God has forgiven me and I know God will take care of them.

Now, I need to start on the "what I should hv and could hv been". It's so far away. So out of reach. I don't even know where to start and how to start. Very encouraged to read on BK's blog abt how he kept believing God and kept the passion for so many years even in the face of others' mockeries. So discouraged yet still passionate. Today, that promise has come to pass. I know that maybe i will have to take years, but I know all things are possible in Christ Jesus. I just hv to keep the passion and not betray the calling that God has given me. It is in His time. I muz believe. "I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord." Pro 27:13-14

The presence of God was there to minister to us so easily. No loud praying and pushing through. Just His presence. As we ended, Pst got us to turn to someone we were comfortable with to pray. Vic and I joined hands and prayed. When it was my turn to pray, I simply thanked God for Victor. I know he has always wanted to match up at a materialistic level for me but yet, the deepest needs in my heart and life that no material means could satisfy, he had already met it. And I am so thankful to God for him. I assured him that I'm so proud of him and prayed that God would prosper him and make him the head and not the tail in his house and family. He teared. I think it's only the 3rd time I have ever seen him teared for any reason. He's a tough man and I love my tough man.

My Personal DNA?

Dynamic Visionary

Ok. That is the personality test that I have just taken. Too shocked by it. Are u sure that is me??? Any comments?

View my detailed report: http://www.personaldna.com/report.php?u=7abb926560ce