Keighley gal

Just now went to my parents' place cos I can see Keighley my almost-3mth old niece. She welcomed me with a LOUD cry, full strength from her abdomen. She is an opera singer in the making... Cos the "singing" went on for an hour before she was quiet for 30min. Hee. And then loud "singing" began all over again... Hee hee.

She's still so adorable la even tho her face was red from crying. And she was pulling her hair and ear while she cries, which made her cry even more... I was watching her cry and wondering why she did all those "stunts" when it hurts. I mean she's only a baby. I dun even think she cried this way to be a attention-seeker or throwing tantrums to get something she wanted. She cried just bcos she just felt something is not right maybe not even knowing what exactly will make it right... She will calm down a while as if trying to feel if it's right... Then she will start crying again protesting how she was feeling so not-right. And I think i know why now... cos she's so accustomed to sleeping on a automated sarong bed at home that she needs to be rocked all the time to fall a sleep and to feel that "rightness". Haha. Babies are so cute right.

When I was a baby I was also very used to sleeping in sarong attached to a "spring" that will spring me up and down. Now, I can sleep ANYWHERE........ ANYTIME........ Cos my needs have changed over time.

When we are young, we say and do things the way we want. But when we are old, we no longer just say and do anything that we want. (That's in the BIble. Can't remember exactly which verse.) Bcos our sense of responsibility has grown. We see further and bigger. We consider more. Our lives are no longer just about "I, ME & MYSELF".

We no longer just consider "my own dreams", "my own desires", "my own needs". Is it a burden? Not reali. It's just a phase in our lives that we have to learn to grow into as it comes our way. If we can step into it and learn to handle it, we have grown, we have moved on. Dun just stay at crying at the "feel-not-so-right" like a baby. (All the parents will agree that u won't ur baby to remain at this crying stage. Ha!)

It's not a burden. :)