划悲愤为食量

I still couldn't get over my sadness very much. Cried before I came out today.

Anyway, I have proven to myself what it means to 划悲愤为食量。 Haha. Went to have dinner with the cousin-gang and I reali REALI ate to my fill. I kept saying I was hungry and i reali felt so hungry. It's like in my mind i was saying, "hey! the rest of you dun cook first. I cook first. dun fight with me for food!!!!!!" Haha. Of cos, I am exaggerating a little to emphasize my desperate cry of hunger. Furthermore, it's an expensive $42 steamboat buffet at Chong Qing Hotpot in Suntec, so I gotta eat to my fill right... Hehe. And today, I have my hubby with me, so I am happier eating the though-expensive dinner. HA!

To me, it's not the price of the meal nor the food itself. I simply like the fact that they laugh, they disagree, and they display their excitement freely even though it may not be reali of interest for the rest. Ha... 

I am generally a more serious person. And most of the time if you find me unhappy, angry and impatient, it's usually over something else that I am blaming myself for and you are catching me at the wrong time. Haha... And no use trying to cushion it for me too, I would feel worse. Ha. Weird hor. Maybe, I shld care less about things said or done. BTW, if you still dunno, it actually takes a lot for me to be soooo angry with pp and stay that way. Usually, if I am displaying my anger, most of the time, it's on purpose for a reason. It's very tiring to be angry you know. Haha. :) So dun worry abt me. I forget all the time. But dun take me for granted bcos somehow I'll knw. ;P

Anyway, I brought home many "balls" that filled my stomach till I felt like throwing up. 

I hope I will feel better.

God, I hand it over into Your hands. And can that include the "balls" that are swimming in my stomach? :) 

Love you, God.