I'm very curious

I'm very curious to find out. It is where rubber meets the road. As my dear friends, i trust that you will be truthful to me.

Have my blog entries ripped your faith apart?

Have my sharing stumbled you?

Or have I encouraged you?

Or have I led you to thoughts and revelation of how good God is?

Pls be truthful. You can PM me if you are comfortable that way.

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Frankly, I find it rather absurd to think that anyone would feel so discouraged after reading my entries. FYI, some close to heart entries are limited to people who are supposed to be closer. Well, at least I know now, some are simply not that close after all.

As I write, I feel sad. But this will not stop me from blogging. The day I decided to blog, I told myself I am doing this for a purpose. I may not be able to preach to a great congregation, but I can preach with my life.

Having know me all these years, you judge. Have I fallen? Am I not still standing after all that I have been through? The torment I used to live with before i came to CHC. The issues that I had to deal with after coming CHC. The depression I had to handle while on staff and in SOT? The learning process (or the overcoming process, I call it) that I had in handling admin and ldrs. The health issue last year.

Am I not still standing? Am I not?

I may look weak, and share abt my weaknesses but I am definitely not weak.

If you want to abound, you need to also know what it means to abase. Cut the crap about looking and being strong all the time. I have no short of weaknesses but I am not a weak person. 

After all these years, I see many rise and fall. I am still standing. Why am I still labelled "weak"? Actually, I don't quite care, cos I know I am strong. This time, I won't let go again of what I think is right. I know why I have started and I know what I want to achieve. Call me arrogant. Just let me be this time. How many times have I been found arrogant and full of myself? I have my whole life to prove you wrong and I am not in a hurry. Are you?

Greater is He who's in me than he who's in the world.

And he who kneels most, stands best.

God is good.