Without Thyroxine

Just after about 1 day without my thyroid medication, i am already totally drained out. I hit straight into my sleep once i lay on my bed. TIRED. Now is the 4th day without the medication, my dark circles are so obvious. I am just so tired. 

And I just read up online on what I might experience during this 2 wks before I go back to my medication... O Gosh...

Borderline personality disorder is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a long-term disturbance of personality function. It is one of four related diagnoses typified by disturbance in impulse control and emotional dysregulation, the others being narcissistic-, histrionic- and antisocial personality disorders.

Disturbances suffered by those with borderline personality disorder are wide-ranging. The general profile of the disorder typically includes a pervasive instability in mood, extreme "black and white" thinking, or "splitting", chaotic and unstable interpersonal relationships, self-image, identity, and behavior, as well as a disturbance in the individual's sense of self. In extreme cases, this disturbance in the sense of self can lead to periods of dissociation

Ok. That explains why I am feeling happy and excited one moment and then down the next. But not as "kua zhang" as what is stated above la. Just that I kept praying in tongues. Dun like the feeling.

Sluggish Cognitive Tempo (SCT) ...logically they also process information more slowly. A key behavioural characteristic of those with SCT symptoms is that they are more likely to appear to be lacking motivation. They lack energy to deal with mundane tasks and will consequently seek things that are mentally stimulating because of their underaroused state. Those with SCT symptoms show a qualitatively different kind of attention deficit that is more typical of a true information input-output problem, such as memory retrieval and active working memory.

That explains why I am feeling so "SLOW" and tired. I just feel like sleeping. I wonder how I am going to tahan till CGM is over tmr. By the grace of God la. 

Can you imagine the doc wants me to go without thyroxine for 4 wks?! Thank God I requested to only go without it for 2 wks instead of 4 cos now I oreadi can't tahan liao... There are so many common and uncommon symptoms that may show up and many of it I am experiencing it now.... And I can still remember so clearly how it feels like when I went through the treatment and being isolated in the room for 3 days. Feel like crying just at the thought of it.

Pls pray for me. I'm sorry but do excuse me if I am not so nice to you during this period. Thank you for your prayers.